“I can never draw as well as her, or play so well as him…”
“I am not nearly as good as all the wonderful authors on my shelves”
“How can I write a story, when all the stories had already been written”
“Why bother writing when the chance to get published is so slim to none”
Wow… Sorry for the grim start, lol, but these are only a few of the things I used to say to myself all the time, when I was about to write. These fears kept me from writing for a very long time.
As one of my characters said to my main character: “Don’t let this bars of fear stop you from fighting for what you believe in.”
I truly believed that no one will ever care about what I write and even might laugh at me for even wanting to try to write a book.
I can honestly say that I don’t write like Tolkien, Rowling, Robin Hobb, Jane Austin, Terry Pratchett or George R. R. Martin. I don’t have the same writing style at all. But I can say without a doubt that my writing has my own style (and that is good) and it has my own way of looking at things.
It may sound silly to most of you (if not to all of you, lol) and I guess it is silly that I thought otherwise. I may not write the next Rowling style of books, but they will be mine and I wish I knew that when I was younger and so full of fears.
Now I know that there will be people who will not like my stories or even hate them, but there will be people who will like them or even love them, as long as I love what I write.
There are times when I read my story and I say, omg… what will happen next? Or I love it. There are times when I read it and I know that this will never see the light of day beyond the small folder deep on my computer.
Knowing this may seem trivial to most, but it took me a while to get here and understand that it’s okay to be afraid, but it’s not okay to let this fear control me and prevent me from trying to accomplish my dreams.
I still have this fear that people will hate what I write (stories and blog posts), but I am not willing to let this fear stop me (not anymore). Now I know that I am good enough to write whatever I want and how I want, some may not like it but some will.
As long as I love the story and the characters, somewhere in the world another person will love my story and be able to connect to it.
Okay, I will stop here or I will continue on with my ramblings, lol.
I hope you are all having a nice and even wonderful day, stay strong and don’t let the fear stop you from going after your dreams 🙂
As always, thank you so much for reading ❤